And
Not looking back.
Jump at the sky.
Wings are tried.
Soaring with eagles grand and majestic.
Loving, trusting and learning to fly.
Tender wings leaning on the wind of great promise.
Is that really blue sky that I see?
No longer sure of where it may carry.
I'm just goin'.
Moving forward
And
Not looking back.
(c) 2009, Debi Mason
Spoken Word Ministries, USA
I will have to be the first to admit that I really did not completely understand what the Lord was asking me to do. I mean, I was being asked to give it all up for His sake. I heard it as clear as if it were you and I talking. This particular Sunday I was walking right past the band area at church and that unmistakable voice caused me to stop and listen for just a moment. Alright, I confess, I never hear long and involved soliloquies and sermons from the Lord (if I did, hmmm...is it me or...?). Generally what I hear is one or two words like: get ready, move, read, study, watch, wait, pray or, my all time favorite, keep your mouth shut (which I always seem to pay attention to when it is already too late). Well,this time what I was hearing was a question. "Are you willing to give it all up for my sake?" Now you know, in my child mind, I was thinking that the Lord was asking me to give up my few meager possessions and to pick up my cross and follow. Sounded wonderful to me so I gladly said, "Yea, Lord and hallelujah." But, you guessed it, what I was really being asked to do was to let go of some heavy weight. Ok, for those that know me...don't laugh! Anyway, I have come to realize that we all carry a lot of extra pounds and what's funny is that we all know what kind of weight we are carrying. There are times when I discover that I am still carrying around some stuff that I truly thought I had been delivered from. What about my prejudices? Am I really willing to go into unfamiliar territory and talk to that man or that woman that is slightly off kilter or looks and acts differently? Smells differently? Yep, prejudice is a very heavy weight. And what about resentments and jealousy? Am I really happy for my girl getting that job that I applied for and didn't get? Lord, have mercy! Loose that particular kind of weight and, I'm telling you, you will be light as a feather!
But what about the weight of disobedience? The Lord has blessed me with new definitions to old words. As I mature in this walk, a word like disobedience is no longer the simple issue of not saying something, such as in "hush mouth grace" or not doing a particular thing like not going to bible study for no particular reason other than the fact that you just felt lazy. Disobedience now, for me, means consequences that are immediate and rather earth shaking. This saint immediately knows when she is not walking in the will of God and when she is doing something contrary to the "prime directive". I start to notice that I am carrying around several extra pounds than I should. Often when I am asked how I am doing I will reply, "Just doing the left foot, right foot walk through this life." Being honest, I can tell you that disobedience is like walking left foot, right foot through sludge and because of the weight of the thing there is an honest sensation of sinking.
Ok, so the Lord spoke to me that Sunday by the band stand and it took me two months of walking in the sludge of disobedience before I got it. I felt like I was putting on pound after pound of weight. I couldn't fast that feeling away nor would there ever be any diet that could fix it. The day that I made up my mind to pay attention to the kind of weight that I knew that I was carrying I received a new dance, a new tongue, a new grace and beauty. I let go of all that weight that so easily beset me and now I have moved forward and I ain't looking back. Debi Mason.....stepping out on faith. To God be the glory.
